~I wonder what's so euphoric about the things i say... :))


"Pagal"

Gusto ng itigil
Ngunit di na makapagpigil,
Sabik ng malaman,
Ang katotohanan.
Wag ng bitinin,
Pagal na ang damdamin.

Gusto ng tigilan,
Ngunit di makayanan, di mahayaan,
Di mabigyang kalayaan.
Pagod na ako,
Oh diyos ko,
Nasasaktan na ako.

Pagod ng maghintay,
Baka walang dapat hintayin,
Dalawang paskong lumipas, di parin dumating.

Gusto ng itigil
Ngunit di na makapagpigil,
Sabik ng malaman,
Ang katotohanan,
Wag ng bitinin,
Pagal na ang damdamin.

Nakahanap na ba ng ibang magpapaligaya?
Nasasakin pa ba, ang kakaibang sayang noo'y natamasa?
O lumipad na at tuluyan ng tayo'y walang pag asa?
~


"Habulan"
Hindi pa ba sapat
Ang iyong nadarama,
Upang ako'y iyong
-gustuhin na makasama?

Matagal ng pakikipagparamdaman
Ako'y nataya mo na,
Bakit hinahabol pa?
Sabihin mo ng ako'y taya
Para matigil na ako sa pagtakbo.

Sa habulang ito,
Malapit na akong sumuko.
Nararamdaman kong ikaw rin ay napapagod,
Nasasa iyo ang desisyon,
Kung sinabi mo na noon,
Edi sana di na tayo nagtatakbuhan pa ngayon.

Matagal ng nagpapakiramdaman,
Ako'y nataya mo na,
Bakit hinahabol pa.
Sabihin mong ako'y taya na
Para tumigil na sa pagtakbo.

Kelan ba titigil ang larong ito?
Mahal na kita,
Ako ba'y mahal mo?
~


There is nothing euphoric about the things i say. hahahaha!

Payaso

Maligaya. Masaya. Palaging nakangiti, mukang pinapakita sa iba.
Sa kabila nito, tunay nga bang maligaya? masaya? nakangiti ba ang ikinukubli sa loob?
Hindi mapagkakailangang naging masaya ka na nuon.
Ano nga bang kinakatakutan ng taong hindi mawawalan.

Hindi.
buhay siya,
Buhay.

Kailangan ng payaso upang buhay mabigyan muling kulay.

Lumangoy sa utak na siyang kanyang naging pansamantalang pasyalan,
Libangan. lugar na malayo sa mundong kanyang tinakasan.
Nagsilbing kapa sa kanyang paglipad
patungo sa kawalan.

Payaso ako'y muling buhayin...
gumamit ng salamin..
ng makitang payasong iyong mithiin.




--labo. hahaha

I'm Spring. :))

I was at my multiply site and read my past blogs.
I still remember writing this one last June 22, 2009...

"happiness"

I used to believe that everything's possible, that everything is within my reach, that i can get everything i ever want as long as i work hard for it, i still believe in it today, but i recently realized that, sometimes, things don't go your way, that life isn't always happy and that no matter how much you want things to be, they just can't.

Life is amazing. It is beautiful even if the world knocks you down, it remains awesome. what is happiness without sadness anyway? probably not happiness at all.

I guess no one would choose the other person to be unhappy for the sake of self happiness, but then again maybe that's just me.

Now i can say i grew up well, and that im a "kid" no more, so even if it pains me to let go, i will. call it maturity, call it stupidity, call it unselfish, call it dumb, call it unconditional.
I regret nothing. (well maybe some, but sure, i regret nothing)

Tears. they fall like humans do, but its not a sign of weakness nor defeat, for it makes one strong, powerful and clever than before (hopefully).

I do wish things turned out differently, but like i said, i regret nothing.
Is there no turning back after this? i don't know. im not sure. still im weak and probably still foolish.

Nothing. that's what i keep on telling myself, this journey will be over, i can only pray and wish for it to be soon, but only God knows for how long.

you've caused me pain but you've given and made me happy still.
may this be my farewell to a love that could have been:)

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enough is enough? hahahaha! :)
enough with the drama. enough with the asa. stop na:))

Life is still a fairy tale:)

~

After writing that,no, i wasn't able to say goodbye or bid farewell to what i used to call "a love that could've been" the problem then is still the problem today, only now, it is not considered as a "Problem". I dont know what it is exactly..

I'm afraid. the idea of being like "Summer" in the movie 500 days of summer..
Im not sure of what i feel, i'm afraid that the uncertainty will lead me into being certain to someone else...is that weird? hahaha. it is! argh. hahaha